(not so) SUPER MOM!

For the last almost 5 years of my life I am going to admit it, I have been trying to be Super Mom. First it started when Reese was born and I wasn't going to ever going to let him eat baby food out of a jar, let him watch more than a half-hour of TV a day and there was no way we would ever have a DVD player in our car especially out running errands! More recently it has been by just taking on more and more and more without letting anything go!
Don't get me wrong, our children have some days where they do nothing but watch television all day long. But it's okay because "it's Preschool on TV"! Thanks Nick Jr.! Griffin not only ate baby food from a jar, but not too long ago we found him chewing on Paige's umbilical chord... That's a true story!! Nasty, but true!! We typically put a DVD in when we run errands so that Rob and I can get 10 minutes of peace and quiet so we can have a conversation! We have let some of those things go, but the day to day of being a mom who stays home, who keeps a perfect house, who greets her husband at the door, who runs a business from home and cooks a perfect dinner, I haven't let any of that go (not in my mind anyway).
While I make light of it, recently I have made another decision in the process to reform my "super mom" mentality. I have decided that it is actually a big deal to be the mother of 4 kids in 4.5 years and to run a business and a household at the same time. I am going to stop acting like anyone could do this and give myself credit where credit is due. But I am also going to start being real about it and make some decisions to make all of our lives easier! I am actually excited about the future in our home because I decided to hire a nanny!
I want to have time to focus on the things I love, God, my children, myself and my husband! That means I have to have help! Right now I try so hard to focus on all of those things and the truth is I am not very good at multi-tasking! I have had the kids at a sitter on Tuesdays for a long time and and it is known that in our house Tuesdays are a calm day for everyone! I want more Tuesdays!! I am looking forward to spending 100% of my focus on work during work time, 100% of my time on my family when it is family time and 100% of my time on me when it is me time! Focus breeds productivity and productivity breeds contentment!
I feel such a sense of joy and accomplishment both from being home with my children and from running my own business. I can't imagine letting either one go. Hiring a nanny will allow me to have the best of both worlds! And the best part is that I am going to stop pretending like I can take on the whole world! Super mom can be defeated...this is my attempt at making sure she isn't! :) Time to call in the forces!