I am so excited, (but more nervous) that I am traveling to L.A. on Wednesday! This is a once in a lifetime opportunity! Thirty-One has offered me and 20 (or so) other top directors with the company to fly to L.A. to the Direct Selling Women's Association National Conferences all expenses paid!
You might think that I am nervous because I am flying while I am 32 weeks pregnant, but really that doesn't bother me at all. I am nervous because I am going to be gone for 6 whole days! What a long break from reality!
Rob will be home with the kids while I am gone. The time leading up to my leaving is full of preparations to make sure that things continue to run smoothly while I am gone. Getting groceries, arranging for child care, car pooling, meals, schedules, reminders, etc. Not to mention I have to shop and pack for myself! I think that these trips are great for me to attend because by the time I get to the day I am supposed to leave, I am so exhausted preparing to leave that I desperately need a break! I should be excited and looking forward to 6 whole days of not retrieving sipping cups and changing diapers, but that's really not the case!
I know that Rob is totally capable of taking care of the kids! He is very responsible, but there are so many things I do here that I think go unnoticed! I pride myself in our scheduled naps, eating and bed times. That's how we keep any sort of sanity around here. I know in my mind that for the next 6 days, there may or may not be lunch at 11:30, there may or may not be naps at 1:30, the kids may not be reminded to brush their teeth twice a day, and there probably will not be a vegetable served that isn't in the shape of a french fry or tomato sauce!
In my mind I know that this time away from me is actually good for them and me. I am pretty sure there is no other time in my life I will get 6 entire days to myself! But my heart says "No don't go, they NEED you!"
I am guessing that part of what makes me nervous is being all alone in my thoughts. That happens so rarely and I am so used to my little people filling up any white noise around me that I am not sure how I will just simply relax and focus on me!
The time that the kids will get with Rob is important! I love that they can see their dad taking care of things and even though he doesn't do it the way I would do it, he does it great! If I could just get past the guilt that mother's tend to carry when we do anything for ourselves...I would actually enjoy this little trip of mine and know that when I get back I will still be needed! After all, those groceries that I got
will run out eventually!